ughhh today has be horrible. i have a headache from crying soo much. i'm sick and tired of trying to make plans with people and having nothing ever work out. i thought that this yr of college would be different then last yr, but its turning out to be pretty much the same. the person i'm most mad at is myself. i'm mad that my life is turning out this way. there is so much i want to do, but its just not happening. i wish that there were more people in my life who actually gave a shit about me cuz i'm not gonna lie its pretty lonely sometimes. i think that i have a lot to offer people and it just sucks that no one ever notices. i'm mad that everything i wanted to expirence in college hasn't happened. i'm just so mad at myself.

soooo. today i actually went outside for madd hours cuz there actually wasn't a thunderstorm today. this is like the first day that it actually felt like summer even though it kinda is the middle of july. i just like sat on my deck and just read like 100 pages. it was fun. then i went on my pool deck and tanned/sunburnt for like 2 hours. it was just nice to be outside and just chill.and now i am watching icarly cuz i'm just that ill and my life is just that exciting. kkk i'm done. l8ter. omg i just saw the bumpit commerical again. its sooo funny. ok now i'm done.

Well i don't really know what i'm supposed to be doing on this thingy but its called a liveJOURNAL, so i guess you are supposed to write about stuff. idk just a wild guess. well i really don't have anything interesting to write about right now cuz at the moment i'm bored. its freaking hot in my room and i'm bored. great. those are like the two best things ever. i totally wish that i knew the cure to being bored. it would be awesome. well its been 19 years and i still haven't found the cure. sucks. well writing this thingy is kinda entertaining me. omg what would happen if i wrote a random word that made no sense in this thing? hollafoadolla. you were prob just like wtf? well that was fun. actually i would hollafoamilliondollas. i don't even know what holla means. i bet the person who invented holla dosen't even know what it means. he prob said it by mistake or something like that and people looked at him and were like wtf does that mean? and i bet he said ummm its another version of hello. but he made that up cuz he really doesn't know what it means. holla is one of those words that people say to act like they are kool, but they really don't know what it means. i say holla sometimes... so i guess i am one of those people. but not really cuz i actually know that i don't know what holla means i just say it to say it i guess. wow i can't believe that i wrote that much about the word holla. ya sometimes i go on rants about stupid things... so i'm just warning whoever is reading this. i also can't spell and i don't obey the rules of grammar... just warning you. i also don't like paragraphs... just warning you. i also swear a lot ... just warning you. i also write really long things about nothing... just warning you. ok done. PEACE OUT BITCHES. l8ter <-----it will catch on. even though it doesn't make sense.